5/28/99 -- I feel so alone right now.  I can't talk to anyone about how I feel, all I have is the black space of the screen and the grey text that are my thoughts. 

That's ironic, because my thoughts are black, and my mind is grey with confusion.  I don't know what to think about anything, only that I know that I am a miserable failure at life. 

I wish things could be so different.  I wish I could belong.  I wish I was someone else. But wishes don't come true. 

I can't even believe it's going to be a three day weekend.  Right now it feels like the first three days of Hell.   Someone asked me a little while ago if I was glad the day was almost over.  I told her that I wish it had never begun.

5:20 PM

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